small things

How quickly can life turn an full circle on you?
I have found, it can be pretty quick. You are very happy and then before you realize, life spring up a few surprizes as if waiting for the ambush.

But what is amusing is you can never really predict these. Often coming in the form of small trifles...they seem to an inordinately large part of your mind and leave you grappling with questions that draws you into the vortex of your blues. How long u grapple with it usually not upto you. Sometimes the respite comes quick and at other times you just have to bear them out.

What gives hope is, it is smaller things that catapults you out of these moods. And before you realize you are happy again. What makes me write this piece is that the whole cycle of all this seems to have lived its full circle within a period of a couple of days. And I am at a loss to understand is that what I analyzed as the root cause of some of my problems and decided to control turned a full circle and brought about a spell of sudden pleasure. And now again just 2 days latter I am again concluding that I need to do what I decided. May be I am wrong but i am just not in a mood to analyze things right from scratch again.

What i believe is that unfinished work, deadlines not met and promises made to yourself broken are simple things that need to be controlled. I live by them but one fine day I feel I am becoming a control freak and decide to let go. It does me good but sometimes things go wrong and I decide i am better the way i am. So I begin one more week of struggle to be good to myself...

A small card I saw years ago makes so much sense..." Every day is a new chance to make your dreams come true."